By God's grace

Today, my ENT doctor said that the MRI was clear and also based on the hearing test I took today - my hearing has come back. Almost all of it! In fact, I won't need another hearing test for another year! He did say though that it looks like I lost some hearing - the part that hears loud, high pitched sounds. He said that I may also may have trouble hearing certain consonants in words when in a noisy/busy room. Well, all those are things I can live with! Who wants to hear high-pitched sounds anyway?

So I am feeling very blessed. God is an awesome God. I know that there was a possibility things would have gone the other way.

Today - someone told me that temporary hearing loss is quite common. Is it? I don't really care that it is or isn't. The fact is - it happened to me and I was terrified!!! What does he know anyway? I was quite irked by his comment. But I know that God had his hand upon me the entire time. It is by God's grace that I was healed.

What have I learned from this? That surrendering my worries/fears to God has never come easy to me. I've always wanted to be the one in the driver seat. But let me tell you - it's so much easier when we let Him do the driving.

Through Him all things are possible. Luke 18:27.

I will never take for granted what I can hear. And that is a tough one because with an 8 yr old and a 3 yr old - most days I get more than my share of whining! But I am grateful to be able to hear them.

MRI done

So the MRI experience wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I believe it did pretty well considering I am afraid of being in small enclosed spaces. It helped that the tech was very nice and explained everything. I had called ahead and had planned on them giving me a mild sedative. However, it didn't work out as planned. I was alone & didn't have anyone else with me to drive me home so they were not able to give me the much anticipated Valium. That's a whole other story that I am not ready to make public yet.

I miss blogging. But I just haven't felt that I had anything to write about. I have been struggling to be positive. Don't get me wrong - I have been faithful and I know that God has His hand on me. But I have been feeling like I am being attacked. It's been hard. A struggle that I have to face each day. I'm not even sure if it makes sense. It's hard to write this.

On the bright side - I have regained more hearing! In fact, I can hear most things when spoken clearly and not much noise around me. God is so awesome! I know that He will answer my prayers.

MRI results on the 16th.

forgiveness

Wow....seems like so much time has gone by since I last blogged. Actually, someone said something to me that hurt and I took it the wrong way about everything - even this blog. But now I'm at the point where I have made more sense out of what was said and now more than ever just want to get better.

I can hear more each day. I am almost sure that I will get most of my hearing back eventually. The process of regaining my hearing is a long but interesting process. The past few days - my ear has been sensitive to certain sounds. Like a motorcycle driving by  really makes my ears hurt and I even get a bit disoriented as I do not recognize the sound nor know where it is is coming from. We were in a parking lot when I first experienced that an it was good that hub was with me & the kids. The swooshing sound also got louder. It was as if it was a receiver and just waiting to get the connection.

I am truly grateful that some of my hearing is coming back. I still must focus on praying and esp at times like this when I see that God is working on me. He is answering my prayers and I cannot let down on my faith. It's easy to do that when times are good just as it is when we are struggling.

Psalm 18:2


"The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."

A time to rejoice!

Definitely a noticeable difference in my hearing today!!
Rejoicing right now and feeling His grace!

Lab results came back okay. Nothing came up that showed why I would have lost my hearing. So tomorrow is my appointment with my ENT.